I didn't think I would have much time on my hands since I will be packing and preparing things to fly home to IDaho this weekend. But I was asked a question from one of my readers and it inspired a blog post reply:
"You are coming up on your 2 year re-birthday, how do you feel?"
I am not sure I will do my feelings justice by trying to capture them in words. I will start with the obvious, physically. I can take a deeper breath than I ever thought possible. I am running, swimming, biking and riding horses again. I battle with some daily headaches and back pain, but those are probably just side effects of all the medication I take. I am gaining a lot of feeling back along my scar/chest that was completely gone. . it's exciting and tingly/shocky feeling at the same time. My lastest lung function test was overall Forced Vital Capacity was 105%. So the question how do I feel 'physically' answers itself there :)
How do I feel emotionally is well, more difficult to explain. I feel accomplished (see previous posts) but I feel like I have tried to do the most with what I have been given. I have shared my life post transplant with whoever is seeking it. I feel humbled that my words, feelings, thoughts, and experiences have possibly helped someone in need of answers or inspiration. I feel grateful that I know I am trying to strengthen others and that I am fulfilling my promises and potential the Lord gave me. I will talk more about my feelings toward my donor and donor family on Dec. 10th. Right now I am peaceful inside, I know I did the right thing and have been blessed for it every day. I have a humongous amount of excitement for what is ahead of me and all the opportunities that have been presented to me recently. Once again, I didn't do any of this alone and I find encouragement with all the blessings I receive daily. I know the Lord has a purpose for me and I am doing what I can to fulfill it.
To end, I feel like the last 22 months has been more than I could have dreamed for. I had a few bumps, but the view from being on top of the world was worth it. I can't imagine my life any different than it is now. . .
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1 comment:
Great post! I think you described your feelings, both emotionally and physically great!!! Congrats on the upcoming 2 year anniversary!! Praying for a safe upcoming move for you too!!!
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