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Tuesday, June 30, 2009

Reflection.....

It's so amazing to me how much we are able to overcome...we can be stronger than we think when we rely on the Lord. I have just been contemplating that a lot lately. I had a family reunion this weekend and saw many people for the first time since my transplant. I had many opportunities to reminisce about my transplant and reflect back on my struggles and trials in life and my transplant. It was weird to hear others tell me how sick I was 2 years ago and how they knew I didn't have much more life left in my tiny, frail, body. It's like another lifetime to me.....how easy it is to forget how tough every day was. There is no way I did it alone. It's kinda funny though~ I thought I did a pretty good job hiding how sick I was....I guess I only fooled myself :)

Before my transplant I had to worry I wouldn't wake up every time I fell asleep or hard it was going to be to tell Bryan "goodbye". . . now I find myself worrying (obsessing) over my lung functions and rejection. But I also get to worry about what I am going to do with my life and being a "movie star" someday.

I am diligent about checking my lung functions several times a week and I track my meds and Prograf levels closely. Prograf is the medication that supresses my immune system so my body does not reject the transplanted organ. I just had some blood work done and my prograf levels were REALLY low. . which can allow my immune system to put my body in "Red Alert" and try to self destruct. :) However, I don't show any signs of rejection and my medication has been increased to raise my level. It's a reminder to me that I still have a very serious medical condition. I still have a life threatening disease and must manage it day by day. . . but it is also a reminder of the miracle I was given. I can breath and be healthy as long as I take a couple of pills every day diligently. I think that the things we have to work the hardest for are the the things we appreciate the most. I never ask for an easier life. . . I just ask for life.

If I could have one more wish in my lifetime it would be to know more about the person who gave me a 2nd chance in life. I may not get that during my life now~ but I know one day we will meet and rejoice in heaven.

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