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Monday, July 13, 2009

Mixed emotions. . .

We are getting close to the end of our time here in Idaho. . . I am really enjoying all the "active"ity I have been able to do here. I have rode Princess enough to even get her squishy fat butt to be. . . well less squishy and fat. I also was able to take my most precious Pixydust to the trainer to be broke to ride in a month or so. I so wish I could be here when she comes back and is ready to ride~I will not be able to ride her untill. . . ??? I have someone to go do stuff with every day and I stay pretty entertained. I have done tons of scrapbooking with my sister and other friends. I will miss all that stuff. . . however. . Idaho weather changes more often than my haircolor. . .and that's often! The wind blows A LOT and it has rained quite a bit. There is no swimming pool in my backyard and my allergies are miserable. Bryan has been working out of town at Old Faithful, therefore, I sleep alone. Can you see how I could have mixed emotions about leaving Idaho and returning to Phoenix?

In Phoenix. . . . Bryan will start school again on July 20th, so we are driving 13 hours back to Phoenix this weekend!! I hate the drive but I love that I have a captive audience to chatter to for the entire drive :) I am SUPER excited about my Improv class and I will also be taking a character developement/advance scene class at the JESTERZ ~ I am also going to work harder and try to get a talent agent and audition for some films to get experience. I have been "half-heartedly" trying, because my own fears and worries are holding me back. Well I have been thinking to myself lately and I've come to the conclusion that I am the only one stopping me from becoming whatever I want. I am in control of my future. . . . So world. . . Here I Come~

That was a little dramatic, but you get the idea :) I am sad to leave Idaho~ but I have my life long pasion and dreams waiting for me in Phoenix. . . it's not Hollywood, but it's not Idaho either.

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RunSickboyRun.com said...

Amen! Go for it girl! Trying and failing is MUCH better than never trying at all!

It's super hot here!!!!


Cammi said...

So glad you have had such a good visit. I can see why you are BOTH excited to get home but also sad to leave. There's nothing quite like home. But, you're right, Phoenix is a fun place, too! Have a safe trip home! SO GLAD you are feeling well!

Amy said...

you can do it!!!!!! I'll look for you on the big screen in a few years :)

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