I have heard thy prayer, I have seen thy tears, behold I will heal thee.
2Kings 20:5

Thursday, December 10, 2009

Humpty Dumpty

I thought today would just be joyous celebration. . .it was definitely a good day, but what struck me so odd was how emotional I have been in the last 24 hours. I really can't explain much of it. I figure maybe these "anniversaries" are a time to celebrate but also they are a reminder of the happiest, scariest, painful, traumatic, incredible, unbelievable, miraculous day of my life. All of that at once is overwhelming. It's difficult to not think back on my life before Dec. 10, 2007 and not become emotional. It's impossible to keep from the thoughts of "what if" I hadn't made it. . .creep into my head. That is a 'whol notha' can of worms. I don't dwell on those things very often, but on a day of reflection like today definitely is, it is important to think of the tough times and the sacrifices made so I could live. It's touching to think of how many people it took to save my life. It's quite humbling.

THEN. . . .

NOW. . .

For some reason I feel like Humpty Dumpty. . . but the version where all the kings horseman and all the kings men COULD put Humpty Dumpty back together again. I was falling apart, broken in so many ways. . .but with an army of loved ones, a great community, team of surgeons and specialist, a loving God and one person who chose to be an Organ Donor, I was put back together! To everyone out there who is an Organ Donor, I personally thank you. To all those who currently are not. . . . I beg you. And for all those who have lost a loved one who was a Donor, I honor you!

Everyone who may be celebrating and living their "Re-Birthday", I Congratulate you! Please visit Nancy's blog and wish her a happy 1 yr "Re-Birthday"

Save a life * Be Someone's Hero * Be an Organ Donor


Allan said...

Congratulations!! I am 27 and on the waiting list for a double lung transplant, thank you for sharing your story it is very inspiring.

shannysnewlungs said...

Ahhhh afters are so much better than Befores.

Somer Love said...

I love this post!

Where to start to learn about my transplant!

Thank You for taking the time to read my blog. I am hoping that through this blog and my experiences that I can bring hope, faith and strength to all that may be living with Cystic Fibrosis, CF with Cepacia and Lung Transplant recipients. Information and blog entrees start Nov. 07. My Double Lung Transplant was on Dec. 10th 2007. Please feel free to read about my experience and ask me any questions! My email address is jamiebug77@gmail.com

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