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Monday, March 1, 2010

Ambien Night

I have gone about a month without taking ambien to sleep only because I felt like a bit of a zombie most of the day when I was taking them~ but tonight I have been unsuccessful at falling asleep. I am going to resort to to drug induced sleep. One thing contributing to my inability to sleep is probably the couple (or more) bad scenes from Saturday Nights performance!! Ugh, I get so frustrated and I can't stop the scene from running through my head over and over again. . . . I re-live my bad choices on stage.~ It sucks. I just ask myself. . ."What was I thinking??" Oh well, can't change the past. . .and in improv thankfully I will never have to do those scenes again :) I will just have to work at "NOT" doing scenes that mirror those :) I am still learning. . . maybe lessons will stick with me when I completely bomb! Mistakes are okay if I learn from them right?? This is a perfect example as to why I question what I want to spend my life (borrowed time) doing.

My life is running on borrowed time. . . . However I think I really see it as gifted time :)

Night~ I drug my think is kicking in. . . .

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1 comment:

ambien said...

Ambien is horrible. It made me psychotic. It really aggravated/worsened my Depression, gave me hallucinations, and made me extremely restless and anxious.

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