De-stressing

Lately I have noticed I am rarely stressed out. I can't really put my finger on the exact cause of this, but it sure feels good. I have always considered myself a pretty easy going person. I get along with pretty much everyone and I am up to do doing about anything. After my transplant however, I felt like that aspect of my personality was missing. It is a very displaced feeling. I found that I experienced more fear day to day, I became almost paranoid and I WAS anxious most of the time. I think it is somewhat common to experience those feelings after a surgery like that.

I have talked before about the MANY medications after transplant and I feel they can overload our system. . . eventually we adjust and the effects become more minimal. But now that I have lived with my new lungs for over 2 years, I find most of my anxiety and daily fear of rejection has subsided. I honestly have gone through an entire day almost forgetting I have someone else's lungs. They feel like mine. . . well more of a part of me. It is a peaceful feeling. I still have to take precautions because rejection can be unpredictable and I will probably have to be treated for it at some point (hopefully later than sooner) ~ Just being able to get back a part of my old personality feels so rewarding. I guess I am finally at a point in my life where I realize I have been through what are possibly the hardest times I will face in this life, and so not much else even compares. So why get stressed out. . .it will all seem so easy compared to my transplant, right?

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