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Thursday, March 18, 2010


Lately I have noticed I am rarely stressed out. I can't really put my finger on the exact cause of this, but it sure feels good. I have always considered myself a pretty easy going person. I get along with pretty much everyone and I am up to do doing about anything. After my transplant however, I felt like that aspect of my personality was missing. It is a very displaced feeling. I found that I experienced more fear day to day, I became almost paranoid and I WAS anxious most of the time. I think it is somewhat common to experience those feelings after a surgery like that.

I have talked before about the MANY medications after transplant and I feel they can overload our system. . . eventually we adjust and the effects become more minimal. But now that I have lived with my new lungs for over 2 years, I find most of my anxiety and daily fear of rejection has subsided. I honestly have gone through an entire day almost forgetting I have someone else's lungs. They feel like mine. . . well more of a part of me. It is a peaceful feeling. I still have to take precautions because rejection can be unpredictable and I will probably have to be treated for it at some point (hopefully later than sooner) ~ Just being able to get back a part of my old personality feels so rewarding. I guess I am finally at a point in my life where I realize I have been through what are possibly the hardest times I will face in this life, and so not much else even compares. So why get stressed out. . .it will all seem so easy compared to my transplant, right?

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James Fahr said...

Big thumbs up from me!

Denise Fahr said...

2 thumbs up and a snap from me!

Vicky said...

Hi Jamie. Been meaning to pop in and say hi for ages. I feel like I have so far to go to get to your peaceful and relaxed emotional place - I am definitely still in the anxiety phase! But you give me hope that we'll get there eventually! I've been enjoying your blog a lot recently - I actually came across it when Will was first listed and it was really helpful to read about your amazing journey. Thanks for blogging and your support on our blog! Vicky

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