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Saturday, August 21, 2010

Life up to now

How do you see your life up to today? I see goals I set and reached, and a few that were abandoned. I see lots of smiling and laughing. I see A LOT of time spent with family. I see thousands of people that had a positive effect on my life. I see many tears. I feel some pain. I found true love. I learned what truly makes me happy. I have loss. I have interesting and quirky stories from my life. I know my purpose. I have joy from all the good that God put on this earth, despite living in a world of hate, violence and sin. I see hope, faith and charity. I see my future. Life isn't easy and most of the time is doesn't seem fair. . .but looking back right up to this very second, I know my life was and is what I needed it to be. I wouldn't go back and change a single moment of it. Sure we think at times that erasing a mistake or getting a 'do-over' would make our life better in some way, but from some of my mistakes, pain, loss, and sorrow I learned to recognize and appreciate the joy, happiness, blessings and knowledge that make me who I am right now.

I guess what I am trying to say is living with regrets is no way to live. Too many times people's focus is on the things they DON'T have instead of looking at all the things we do have. Every day that I woke up over the last 31 years 4 months and 8 days, is a gift. If ya really think about every SINGLE thing we have in our lives and count our blessings it is amazing at how blessed we are. It is all about perspective. The saying "take the good with the bad" I can apply to my train of thought right now. . .by saying "take the good and be grateful for the bad so we may know what 'good' is". I feel it's important to count each blessing that we have in our day to day lives, and when I stop and think of every single small blessing . . . . . I can focus on how good my life really is.

Hope some part of this makes sense. . . I am posting at 1:41 am and it helps me sleep if I write on my blog.

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1 comment:

Pam said...

Hey Jamie, That post made perfect sense. I love reading your blog. Alot of times I find myself saying "that's the way I feel too". Congratulations to Bryan on his upcoming graduation. That is an awesome accomplishment. Talk to you later....Pam, fellow Cysta

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