I have heard thy prayer, I have seen thy tears, behold I will heal thee.
2Kings 20:5

Tuesday, July 26, 2016

To love and be loved...

What's you're most treasured belonging? Mine is something that doesn't belong to me but given to me...love more than I ever hoped for, support of my hobbies & talents, admiration every day. My most treasured thing is my husband. Love is such a powerful & healing thing. Without his love I would have never known how strong I could be. 

It has been said that marriage is hard, yet I have not come across anything in the last 17+ years that even came close to making me question my choice to marry. Being loved so much by such an incredible man is my greatest blessing. Love is so powerful. To give love to someone else can be scary. When I was 19 I met my husband. I was afraid to love and be loved because I knew CF wasn't going to allow me to give my husband the things he deserved. I knew I probably wouldn't be able to have his children and worst I knew I probably won't get to grow old with him. That's a lot to expect another person to want to take on. 

I'm so very blessed to have found true love! I'm blessed to have the opportunity to give my love unconditionally. It's not easy sometimes let ourselves be vunerable, I mean we've had to be tough for our families as we battle a terminal illness after all. 

The overwhelming sadness at the thought of leaving my true  love behind when my journey on this earth is done us unbearable at times...but when we allow ourselves to love & be loved so deeply nothing can come in between that, not even death. 

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