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Friday, January 22, 2010

Randomnesses

I have a really tough time sleeping since my transplant. I am not sure if that is common among transplant recipients or if I am just odd. However I find myself in much random thoughts as I lay here awake while Bryan saws logs :)

I had a performance tonight. . .just some extra practice with the upcoming advance improv class. It was good. I had a lot of fun. I did feel bad that I had that and it was Bryan's birthday today. . . so we didn't get to do much for it tonight. He came to my show and supported me, then we were stuck in traffic jam for over an hour on the freeway trying to get back home :( Bryan is a pretty incredible husband for sure!

A few thoughts I have been mulling around in my brain are for some reason about ponderings of what to do with my life. . . . . I think Post Transplant that is another thing I struggle with. I mean I know I want to be an actress and right now I have a great opportunity with the Jester'Z. But I want to do MORE to help others or impact lives. I want to create a charity or organization. I just want to know that I did something to improve the world in some way. It's a big overwhelming feeling of responsibility. . . .it's hard to explain.

I have so many things I could do that I know I could be happy doing. I really want to just learn! So many things interest me and I want to learn them or improve on what I do know. . . like instruments I started learning and never mastered, or sign language, or French (I did try to learn French). . . I mean, I crave knowledge, but I don't really have the means to go to college or pay for music lessons or anything like that right now. I have ideas for Charities but don't really know how to get one up and running or have the money to get one started. Anyway, random thoughts and a glimpse into the MIND OF JAMIE!! More to come I am sure! :)

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