I have heard thy prayer, I have seen thy tears, behold I will heal thee.
2Kings 20:5

Friday, January 22, 2010

Randomnesses

I have a really tough time sleeping since my transplant. I am not sure if that is common among transplant recipients or if I am just odd. However I find myself in much random thoughts as I lay here awake while Bryan saws logs :)

I had a performance tonight. . .just some extra practice with the upcoming advance improv class. It was good. I had a lot of fun. I did feel bad that I had that and it was Bryan's birthday today. . . so we didn't get to do much for it tonight. He came to my show and supported me, then we were stuck in traffic jam for over an hour on the freeway trying to get back home :( Bryan is a pretty incredible husband for sure!

A few thoughts I have been mulling around in my brain are for some reason about ponderings of what to do with my life. . . . . I think Post Transplant that is another thing I struggle with. I mean I know I want to be an actress and right now I have a great opportunity with the Jester'Z. But I want to do MORE to help others or impact lives. I want to create a charity or organization. I just want to know that I did something to improve the world in some way. It's a big overwhelming feeling of responsibility. . . .it's hard to explain.

I have so many things I could do that I know I could be happy doing. I really want to just learn! So many things interest me and I want to learn them or improve on what I do know. . . like instruments I started learning and never mastered, or sign language, or French (I did try to learn French). . . I mean, I crave knowledge, but I don't really have the means to go to college or pay for music lessons or anything like that right now. I have ideas for Charities but don't really know how to get one up and running or have the money to get one started. Anyway, random thoughts and a glimpse into the MIND OF JAMIE!! More to come I am sure! :)

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It's hard to put into words how I feel toward my Heavenly Father and the Savior. I have so many reasons to be thankful for what I have gone through & endured. Because of my trials in life I have gained a strong testimony of Faith. I have always had Faith in the Lord and in Prayer. As I faced the decision to get a double lung transplant I had to rely on faith to make the choice.....By listening to the spirit, I was guided to Pittsburgh where my life was saved. I believe prayers are answered. I have always tried to follow the philosophy of this: If I do what the Lord expects of me, he will give me what I want & need. That has always worked for me. I Believe in MIRACLES..........My life on this earth is a miracle- I prayed on my knees for years to be healed from my lung disease. I knew that through a priesthood blessing (if it was God's will) I could be healed. So many times I thought he would heal me instantly...my faith was tested as I continued to get sick and no cure was in my future. I turned to prayer....I talked to my Heavenly Father, I cried to him and he heard me and he healed me by guiding me to Pittsburgh and guiding the surgeons hands. I learned humility, and thankfulness. I realized that we need others to lean on and we are supposed to strengthen each others testimonies. I learned that the hardest things we'll do are usually the greatest blessings in our life. I was able to experience a lot of things during surgery and I know I had comforting angels in my ICU room. THe Lord knows each of us by name and he will never leave our side. We need to remember to stay close to him and have Faith that he is watching over us. I know this for a fact! I know that following the gospel will bring us true happiness- the world will tell us otherwise, but I know I am truely happy & living the gospel has brought me that. Amen