I really am an outspoken, expressionate, outgoing, friendly, and creative person who loves to laugh and make others laugh. Perhaps self doubt is a VERY normal thing. When I was younger. . .nothing could have ever made me doubt that I could be whatever I wanted to be! I proclaimed it to everyone I met. So I ponder. . .what and when did that undying faith in myself fade away? Where can I find it again?
Life experiences change us. They change our interests, our goals, our future. I feel that perhaps having to face the 'end stage of CF' . . .to have my life shatter around me at a young age, could have buried my fearlessness somewhere. I had to use all my fearlessness to fight for a transplant. . .I think I need to do some digging and rescue that buried part of me. My confidence in myself.
I know who I am. I love who I am. I just want to be more than who I am. . .to become the best of who I can be. That is perhaps the ultimate goal. Despite the doubt monster haunting my hopes and dreams, I am very happy. I know I am very loved. I know I am beautiful inside and out. I CAN learn to destroy the monster that allows me to hold myself back. I
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