I have many 'life decisions' rolling around my head every day. Things from 'why was I given a second chance' and 'what is my purpose in life now'. It's quit interesting that before my transplant my purpose in life seemed so clear. I knew I wanted to beat the odds against CF. I knew what fight I was fighting, everything was familiar and my life kind of had my ending already written. . . in a sense. But now that my life has been gifted back to me and improved I must say, I find myself pondering my purpose. I guess this is normal for someone my age. . .turning point in our lives, but for me. . .I honestly never planned my life much past 30.
Many of the things I think about are very unique to my situation. The side effects of all the medications I take, getting to know the new me, and once again the life long question . . "What now?" I have the privilege of having friends who are also post double lung transplant. I feel really close with one friend particularly and she is CF/Cepacia as well. It is such a blessing to have her to talk to. We actually desire some of the same things in life. She REALLY does know what life is like for me now. Of course we have our differences in situation and circumstances, but we 'get' each other.
There are plenty of things in my life that are hard to accept. I cope with them the best way I can. But if I was alone and without my transplant sisters. . .I know I would be a little lost. So for those of you who know who you are. . .Thank You. . . For understanding, for sharing your fears, concerns, disappointments and joys in your lives post transplant. It makes me feel like there is someone out there who understands me. . . .who "gets" me.
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