I have heard thy prayer, I have seen thy tears, behold I will heal thee.
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Wednesday, January 5, 2011

Is my heart in it?

I have posted about "what next" and I am set to start cosmetology school in February. . . but I have felt torn, as I have mentioned before. Will my heart really be in it? Will I feel satisfied and complete? Will I be happy? I honestly don't know the answer to any of those things. I have been constantly thinking about a casting post I saw a few weeks ago. I can't stop thinking about it. It was a notice for an internship for an acting/casting company based here in Norman. They cast most of the acting work for surrounding areas including Dallas. It would be a 'no pay' deal. . .but I am getting used to those. Unfortunately that tends to come hand in hand with acting :) I just can't leave that opportunity unexplored, so I sent off a cover letter and resume tonight. I should hear back from them with plenty of time to know whether I will continue with my current plan of cosmetology. I just know I must consider the possibility that this would be a great opportunity and I should not pass it up. It could open the right doors for me here, or at least allow me to learn a new perspective and insight to the flipside of casting.

I have my hesitations with cosmetology. The main concern of course is my precious cargo getting damaged by the chemicals used in that profession. Along with concerns of working and losing my medicare benefits. I have already shown a track record of NO INCOME from acting. lol. But this doesn't mean cosmetology is ruled out. I do have two things I enjoy very much one is obviously acting/performing and the other is HAIR.

So I will leave this one up to God. I don't know what he has planned for me, I do know that he will help me do whatever will make me happy. I always know when I have made a good choice. It's hard to explain, but I just know.

My heart and soul and hopes and dreams all belong to Acting. . .I can't explain it, but that is where my heart truly belongs. So I would be going against myself if I didn't at least consider this option.

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